Oh Merry Christmas!

I was still with A last year, oh well.
Have fun!

And Happy Birthday Leon and Lydia! (in advance, Christmas babies)
Love you two :)

 Fuck nearly dropped my mac.

I still love Aloysius,

kthanks bye.

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY YQ.

 

Been awhile since I blogged, shifted to tumblr once I knew this whole blog was gonna be only about you. So what's the point eh?

So anyway, been happy for about 2 weeks without you and it all got washed away. So yeah that's about it.

My life is miserable. I don't know who I am referring to when I tweet about certain things, my life is complicating so don't assume.

But one thing's for sure, I only love you A. but he makes me happy. 
but you, don't even have t do a single thing to make me always love you.

You made 2010 swift by like nothing.

You know everytime I change my blog title it's because of someone, and it's gonna be you.

 

If you say you already do not give a fuck, then why the fuck are you shouting my name when you're fucking drunk. You may be cursing at me and saying I'm this I'm that, or whatever I did to you. But my dear, I've been away for 4 fucking days so what the fuck are you talking about?! was it the letter? what what what?! you wanna settle this? settle what, if you don't even wanna fucking talk about it? and then you fucking hit your own friends cause of it, aren't they gonna hate me more. can you control yourself or not?

you told me you threw my stuff away but you told my friend other wise. wtf? omg. i'm glad i heard what i heard from her but LIE AND HURT ME FOR WHAT. you thought i believed you. you say all these things to your guy friends but you tell me otherwise. people calling me asking for your fucking adress and all that.

i came back so fucking peacefully lor.
i just hope things get better and we both can come to a GOOD conclusion. 

 

I pray that things will get better.

I hope that you didn't mean anything you said to me last night, and you'd take them back like you never meant it. I don't know how we got here, but don't you think it's motherfucking wasted that we keep doing this when all we know is we're definitely gonna be fine one day.

I pray for you to get better so we can talk again. 

I love you and I always will. I hope part of you still do. Though its hard but I hope we don't just stop things here and leave each other and never ever talk again.

why couldn't this be like any other fight? it was part of us, it made us something special.

I just need to know i can win you back and there will be no one else. i love you. please forgive me?

 

Dear God,

Please make everything okay.

Amen.

And I miss you A.T

 

Miss you badly, feels as though you're gone from this place.

I remember how you showed me someone's blog and what she blogged about you, but she was happy for us. You're not doing this now right. I just think negatively.

 

I think it ain't as bad as it seems, just that it feels strange not talking to you at all.

I hope you coool down, its hard on me here. I'm just pushing myself to the limit.

I miss you.

and i dont need anymore drama, i hope it all goes away, like the wind.