Right now, if I were to fall asleep, I will be kicking everything off my bed. and then I will lose all my rings, earrings and everything! :( cb, stupid macbook box, knn blocking me. seriously seriously damn a lot of wires everywhere, its annoying me! :( fuckkkk. go away luh. I dont throw on floor I throw on bed, now.
Alot of ants on my mac, idk why kay. I dont eat in front of it.

The cyber centre dude was quite retarded.

Okay, thinking whether I should go lighter, that wild animal told me dont, for specific reasons. Like dont highlight all, its perfectly fine. I think he is blind! haha.

Presentation was shit today, totally shit. I think I screwed up, if I'm nervous thats it man! Poor groupmates.

Went to *scapre to collect Weiwen's tix. then came home, omg so early.
Gonna start on assignment two now, THINK BRATZ DOLLZ AND GUESS SHOES. wheeee!

Omg so fun.

Tmr is independent day, but we're going to school to do assignments.

Never really thought of it, but if he were to go to someone else now, I'd be happy for him.
Like you know how those tv dramas which goes " i'd be happy for him, in whatever he does/ choose"
Yeah ballz, it really feels this way. I've only loved two person in my love, as in human.

Yeah, I know though we dont communicate that much alr, but we both know, something. Which I dont really know.. how to put it.

and I think someone has to really put a sock in her mouth, like er okay, we like to look presentable cuz we respect the lecturers. I'm sorry bout your height and that there's nothing you can do about it, you wear heels still shorter than us(without heels).
Sorry to short people I've insulted, just that this bitch's been getting on my nerves, dont bully my friends luh. You ugly, short APE!

K so mean, I thought u were nice.



Jk thinks when I said I wanna go lighter, I meant my weight. I know I always complain that I'm fat la, BUT HAIR LA JK HAIR. long luscious hair!

Kay, hope tmr will be easy!

shall go sleep early, for once. bling my shoes, like my doll's shoes.

seph: ANZOEEEEEE
anzoe: what
seph: hiiii
anzoe: call for fun ah?
seph: uh! how's my father?
anzoe to spang: she thought i was asking hows her father
spang: her father is a spy?
jane: her father is a spider?
seph: my father is a sniper?! my father is not a sniper.


Grabbed of Anzoe's blog, I remembered me being too sleepy and I was standing up fiddling with my macbook. Hahah Seph's dad is a spider! HAHHAA OMG FOR ONCE SEPH IS FUNNY!

Today's not all that bad, lessons were only for awhile. Its the last lecture right? Phew.. and yeah was doing nonsense and then talked a bit to K, missed you. :( Sorry bout yesterday.

Went to do more work, oh man :( like really got so distracted and pissed and wanted to die. Harper knows how to configure our macs la, omg he is the best!

I come home late everyday so that I dont have to fight with my family, but noooo they will question me like hell. I'm gonna switch off my phone till 12 MN so they can't contact me. argh! and ya my mom promised to shut the fuck up if my room's neat, which it is now. cheebye! she asked me bout my card, dont wish to elaborate as I've got work to do. fuck off bitch, go menopause alone. I know my words are harsh, but this is it already. I'm done, had enough. It stops here, dont cross the line.

Oh ew, today my dad like sent me to school and my neighbour was in the car. omg!

Alright, esteems' been really low. I never thought that my family would affect me, like quarrels and all but they're fucking adding on to it luh. Seriously.

It started cause of some dude, and then it was okay. Like my girls and monkey knows, Cried like a fool to someone, and yeah.

Everything's all fine till last night, its fine we stil talk. Truth is, I love you, always have always will. I'm trying to not go back to whatever, but its so hard? Hannah knows how it feels, I love you all for being there and helping me get through shit at every point of my life. Esp Hannah, she was always by my side when this happened. Well, I only blame myself for my foolishness, I do not regret knowing K, and I never will. He's been a great part of my life, and I'll always be there for him, and my close friends knows that. I do not hate anyone for telling him anything or any shit, I must learn not to hate. I guess I still love K, and I'm not afraid if he knows, cause we've always been very open to each other, and he's one of a kind and I only can be that open to him. and I'm glad cause I know I will never find someone else like him, someone whom I can tell anything to. He was harsh but he's not so bad after all. and if You're reading this, I still love you alright.
Dont do anything stupid kay?

I'm not being cliche or whatever man. My friends ever asked if I'd put K first before someone new, I doubted myself. I dont know, I think I would. Like the only people who will understand are the ones who've been in and outta love man.

This is so not me, but yes I did love K, and I will never love someone more than how I loved him.
I still hold on to the letter that was for you.

♥


Gonna sleep for awhile, I havent bathed. and wake up and rush work. Bye!

 
Slept for 3 hours and headed to Gf's place, fucking fun. Just like good ol' times. haha damn fun, more of it coming up soon. wheee, I know I've school and all but I feel like letting lose and have fun!

Then headed for Beats & Break at Esplanade, initially it got cancelled then I dont know what. then we went back. Hilarious shit! it was damn good, hiphoppers are so cool, when they rap. hahah like a gangsta! kay shut up. Pictures and videos on facebook, will take awhile to load, its quite long. haha alright!


It was quite awkward at the show. haha yet fun, felt like clubbing. hahahah!

Love you. :(

I was ugly.(must be positive, I'm growing. MAY CHANGE, shut up anons, I will not entertain you)
I was useless.( kay la, I'm quite useless, WAS)
I AM fat!( sibei fat, should go for LipoSUCKMYFATSOUTion)

Fucking low self esteem today, wanted to cry. Might as well die. Rythms. Had to say it, KAY IT! wah lame. The comments are hilarious, seriously seriously. and thanks to those who tried/attempted to make me feel better. haha fuck I was smiling to my computer okay? Damn spaztik lor. Hee hee :D Thankew! Yeah, it made me feel all better knowing that everything is back to normal and I should whack myself on my forehead, FAIL IMPOSSIBLE, did it on Spang though! haha funny. anyway, then.. wake up to reality and tell myself I will never understand someone's lifestyle and too bad Jane, fuck off and die! :( I still miss you. Hope to hear from you soon. I know I'm being paranoid, thinking you hate me or find me spaz(haha), yeah just.. come back. Wanna tell you stuff but You say I have problems with -. Kay fine :)

Gonna eat veges for dinner like almost everyday! Brocolis and mushrooms. Brocolis have luscious-that-greenish-thing-on-the-top-thing. hee hee (Y).

If only I am skinny, then all my problems will go away! YES SHUTTUP I'M SERIOUZ!

Orchard VM trip was quite fun. haha, stupid. Oh we cannot even draw in GAP, haha I was like ,
 " oh my god what a retard we cant draw here!"

and then the lady just looked at me. Hahah, so we left with Harvey. Jolene was like " BUT HE SEND US HERE, TSK! Harveyyy..."

Tsk!

Damn fun, and tiring. We are foreigners.

Harvey bought lunch for all of us luh.

Kay didnt do my hair today, doing tmr. Rushing work tmr too, gonna sleep soon.

Can't wait for gf to be back tmr, and then YA OKAY WE WILL SURPRISE U AT UR PLACE ON SUNDAY KAY. We follow ur instructions. haha surprise.

I will change in 3 months!

Stick to the first one you like. DON'T PLAY!

Guys have their pride.
Everyone has it too.

Just say it.

Take a break, You're so exhausted.Let him!

I know sometimes I think too much, and when it's all fine I'd be like wtf. Even my friends day so. But its so impossible cause I'd never understand your lifestyle. and this is not the first time isn't it.



:(

IMW!
Like fucking much.
you cheebye!

I don't quite like the module right now. Its studying all over again, 3 hours of sitting there continously, no breaks, too cold, typing for non stop for 3 hours, typing maniac like that. Fucking sick of school already, yeah my friend was right, he said we'd all get so sick of school one day we'd slack off. Fuck it, school feels different, I dont feel excited anymore. I think its cause of the module, Harvey's fun and all, but I dont like memorising stuff. VM's fun, but Idk, been really moody these days.

 Hate everything, hate all my iPod songs, cannot wait for the next holidays! Bane says its in 2 months, wow! I cant believe I dont like VM. Shit, be positive.

I fucking hate everything right now.

I am only looking forward to #1's EP LAUNCH next week . :)
EH I LOVE OKTO! hahaha everyone watch it kay. heeeheee!
Only he cheers me up now. wheeee! be positive

Oh there's a lizard in my room names 'A'. Ew!

Thats all. I dont know, sometimes I just can't describe how I feeel. I hate school. OKay not hate, just can;t stand it. I've became so ugly and shagged, I look like an 80 year old.

I always want what I cannot have.
Well, not this time. BUT, we're all too busy.

fuck luh bye.

• Caught Transformers, very action packed, I stoned for a bit, like the first one.
• OH I SAW RIC TODAY! :) again. yay, we were both gonna watch Transformers!
• Get well Hannah, you'll be fine babe :) sad that I cant visit, kay not funny.
• Shopped.
• Gonna stud mystuff, new shoes.
• Make new clothes.
• Paint my nails.
• Pack my room.
• Sleepy early.
• W
• Plan what to wear for school on Monday, its back to runway everyday!
• Go down to the club tmr& fetch dad! YAY!
• I WANT FLAWLESS SKIN. my skin is yuck.

I cant wait for school, its getting boring at home. At the same time I love staying home. Its very near to this school luh. Gonna bog when I have time or not at all. Gonna blog in point form unless I've a lot to say. I'm trying to stay away from the cyber-life and yeah. Get real!

Good night, love y'all.

S,
Sometimes I can't help it but listening to your songs, they're the best!
Hurts listening to them.
But glad that we're fine now, all fine :)

IMW :(

My #1 is not even from school.

pffffffft!
TSKTSKTSK!

Oh anyway, I dont have swine flu luh. When I think of everything and all, it just doesnt make sense and all that shit. But so anyway, everyone is sick so shudddup.

So I'm going out! Meeting Spang in a bit, I better go get ready!

Think I'm going to the club tmr.
Then airport to pick Dad up.

But anyway, this is hilarious. When people take a joke for real and maybe,perhaps talk shit about you.

I'm seriously very happy right now, and I dont wish for anyone to ruin anything. Thankew :)
Yeah, in a weird position now. Not literally!

Anyway, I should stop being a bitch. Not that I'm doing anything bitchy to anyone now. Time to be fucking quiet and like.. ah just fucking quiet and not let anyone know bout whatever I do. Creepy huh?

Do You still?


Friends are enough, I don't need a lover or two.

I need to go for check-up tomorrow cause I'm responsible :) Zip my mouth shut!

And, yes I may be a little jealous :( but I don't know?




Don't leave me kay?

I know of someone who can calm me down. though he thinks he's damn funny.

R.I.P Michael Jackson.

When I was younger I used to listen to his songs just cause my dad played them.
Always wanted to meet him in a way.

We all grew up listening to his song right? He's a legend.

He will be missed.

Thriller.
The King Of Pop.

♥

Slept at 2 plus and ditched #1 online, haha! Had to meet Seph at 9 in the morning. Alright, she's hilarious, centre parting all. So anyway, lunch and headed to town to meet Lydia& Rai.

Lydia: im here already 13:26Pm.(text message)
Me: omg my friend's there already!
Seph: huh? i think she too excited to meet u la.

Anyway, we shopped and bitched& talked. Then Mai and omg I forgot his name again, and we bitched and all AGAIN! damn fun, I think we can have magazine luh.

Okay, lazy!

I wanna watch transformers! I miss MY #1, eh bitch can u get lost not?

and I've a new rule, no lending anyone clothings or anything else. Seriouzly, what if u spoil it?
I dont buy chapalang clothes, even if I do, no lending. So unhygenic, I realise.
and I dont like sharing food/drinks/whatever anymore, like yeah. Scared, I really dont know.
I shall just stop& tke precautions and u all should do too :)
Maybe I'm sick or have AIDS? HAHA NO I DONT KAY!
AIDS are like, contradicted through blood? or you anyhow have sex like a whore then have.That is just lowdown cheap!

and hi bitch, please stop talking about me behind my backs or reading my blog and telling people about it. Seriously I dont even know you? and dont act or talk about me as though you know me cuz u dont? You only see the bad side of me which I often express on my blog. She is not from school. and yeah, stop it. I know A LOT about you, cause people bitch bout you. I dont care if ur some fucking vip? You're not the only one with connections man. HAHA YOU'RE THE JOKE BABE. YOU!

I couldnt care less, rather be talked about than to be not.

AH NOW I KNOW WHY U TALK ABOUT ME. SO I WILL TALK ABOUT YOU. EEE, NO LIFE SIOLXZX!

I was taught not to judge by Mushroom.and I listen cause he makes sense, and I think I've been a bitch for way too long. Mushroom is a good boy. Learn from the best though he isnt the best! HEE :D

Mom& bro went to the supermarket to get food. HAHAHHA!

I lost respect in you, don't wanna be seen with you, dirty. Very cheap.

 Kk 2 mins to blog, 5 mins to go bathe.

AND MY BIRTHDAY WILL BE OVER!
SHITHIT 1 MIN LEFT.

Jk says better what, shows im really 18. Yeah man, my dora bottle. KKKK BATHEEE



when im back my birth day will be over.

IT WAS A FRUITFUL AND AWESOME ONE! LOVE YOU ALL!

Seeing Seph tmr. wah sibei hot, my mac is so hot. HAHAHA ICEICEBABBYY!!

K rush adrenaline. bye!
just nice. KNN!

So whichever club/bar that didnt allow us in yesterday, IN YOUR FACE!

So anyway, thanks for everything& all the wishes!

Okay luh, I name out one by one. CAN REMEMBER ONE. But I'm naming my friends/people I know only.
So, (breathe, nb act famous all).
Rai,Hannah,Lydia,Maimunah,Steph Spang,Seph Ang(you totally wished me on 23rd), Anzoe Sim, Glenda Ding, Eugene, Ken, Bane, Sherilyn, Asyraf, David Jonathan, Yun Hou, Jonathan Koh, Mervin Ramos,Jiahui, Aristotle,Jolene,Yaoting,Jinshen,Taufiq, Hanif, Bhavani, Marcus,Janine, Mingli, Roseline, Camellia, Yang, Liyi, Eliz. oh shit canot remember already. HEEHEE!

Weiwen Seah! You toot. He told me to googl today's day k. walao eh, so saddening. :(
You wanna be #3 again? yeah I think you should.

So anywayyyy!

Thanks for all the effort put into, to sabo me, make me have fun, MAKE ME HAVE THE BEST 18TH CUZ AFTER 18TH, ITS JUAT A NUMBER. yeah yeah Bane is just saying he's old already.

Headed to fareast first, ate and all. Seph had to leave to settle her taiji I THOUGHT TAICHI KAY. I wanna settle for her she dont want, actually I not gangsta so Idk settle what also.
I served everyone, like at coffeeshop all.

Then headed to Clarke Quay& Homeclub. Knn, they check ID all. See the children's face. hahahaha jkjk!
Met up with Dj and Yunhou, then we all went to drink and did really stupid things. Check them out on fb, got videos seriouzly hilarious.

Truth or dare was spaz, like the questions were sick.
Mine was, " so what did u ever think of doing with him?"
Me: walao eh, NOT SEX LA.
Them: who said anything bout sex. hahahhaa janeeee

and they asked the others questions like,

• when was the last time wanked and what was the surrounding.
• who was the most fuckable?
• and all that sex questions. hahahahha!

They made Dj tell this couple he was hungry and asked them for food. hahahaha!That was the best ever.
They made Hannah shout happy birthday to me i fucking love u from sibei far man. THANKS WIFEY!
They made Anzoe go beside a dood lying down randomly, wave to him say hi and do a sit up. HAAHHAHA!
They made Bane go to some guy and say hi do u mind walking hand in hand blah blah, he was holding liqour not counted!
They made Spang, eh what ah! oh right, HAHAHHAHAHAHA STOP A TRISHAW DOOD AND SAY CAN U TAKE ME AWAY! and the dood was like, take u to where? HAHAHHAA!
They made Eugene ask this girl for her number, and she told the girl its a dare, and she got it.
They made Glenda go to some group of pple and go SO HEY WHERE WE HEADING TO NEXT. HAHHA THEY TOTALLY IGNORED HER AND LOOKED AT HER WEIRDLY. TWO DIFF GROUPS K.
THEY MADE ME RUN AROUND SHOUTING ITS MY BIRTHDAY! HAHAHA AND WE BUMPED INTO Izak. WATCH THE VIDEO. FUCKING FUNNNY.

Initially Spang was like " eh call Mushroom and tell him u love him"
Me: KNN U SIAO AH. WALAO NO!
Spang: ok take the bungee.
Me: WA LAO, I CANT GO ALONE. NEVERMIND I'D RATHER CALL MUSHROOM AND TELL HIM I LOVE HIM.

Nabeiiii!
K then headed back,
THEY SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR ME IN THE MRT OMG! AND THEY RAN LIKE KIASUS FOR THE LAST TRAIN, WE WERE JUST.. VIDEOING THEM. HAHAHAHAH!

Then, they had to sing for my every hour. Headed to some place and some girl was like eh go 6th floor safer, thanks babehh. Glenda's speech made my hair stand, was touched luh.dont come killl me. and then, headed back. went supermarketting and all before that. ahaha Spang kept wanting to change, and when i came out..

THEY WERE SINGING FOR ME AGAIN.

I was thinking wah they seriouz THEN I SAW THE CAKE! WHEEE THANKSSSSSSSS :)
So touching. Seriouzly la.

K then we watched wizards of waverly place, and sang to hannah montana, and kim possible.-.- I did too, siao right. then opened presents, there ws a point of time I SCREAMED SO LOUD MY MOM CAME OUT FROM HER ROOM! HAHAHAHAHA! then she took photo for us. wheee!

Okay then they left and Spang stayed till 7am, they say my hair can make cake alr. and i'll look like tht when im old :(

Okay i did rlly dumb stuff aft tht.

OOKAY BYE PICS ON FB! VIDEOS TOO.

REALLY THANKEWW FOR EVERYTHING AND THOSE WHO COULDNT MAKE IT, ITS OKAY I STILL LOVE YOU ALL :)

I will huggg u all. byeee ballllz.

I lost interest in blogging, like I cant post pictures up anyway! haha, massive loading of pictures is exhausting. Definitely more from tonight, ooh that reminds me, Charge batteries!

Photoshoot was great, we've receive the pictures. :) yay! nice work dood!

So anyway, see you guys tonight kay?

This is so exciting!


MY DOG SERIOUZLY CANNOT STFU!


Hope.